LIVE and LEARN.

“But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer” 

That awkward moment when you just want to forget that person you’ve been crushing on for a while but you just can’t. So when that person comes along, you can’t just utter a word to her/him…WHY?! Not to make it awkward! 

It’s fine…

Maybe this time I can wait…

Again…

And yet again, I fall at your feet.

But it’s not the same you. You’re a different kind now.

You surprised me with that shimmering smile that night we first talked. You caught me by surprise. I even get to touch your face without restraint. I was happy then.

I didn’t expect myself to come tumbling down this path again… so soon.

Am I certain that you feel the same way too? No, but at least I do know… that I’m capable of being loved. The odds are against me but, in truth, does it matter? We both know that you wanted to spend time with me, or maybe I just misinterpreted your words?

It’s driving me crazy right now; that’s why I had to let it out.

You’re actually the first person to make me believe that there’s still hope. Please be real.

I decided to stay at home today. I’m kind of happy that I did though I had to catch up in terms of school work, which I’m doing right now. Not to mention, I didn’t have to spend money outside. The downside of it, well, there’s no downside to it really. I just can be here at home, considering it’s nice outside.Except for the unexpected visitor (not really unexpected for someone) that kind of puts a downer to my day, But that is okay…

I just hope you like me too. :-)

But that’s not gonna happen… OR will it?

It still stings.

Not that I missed you, or maybe I do.

I know you saw me but you decided to turn your gaze away from me.

Not that it was a form of rejection - I stopped our communication remember, thinking you can have anyone you want. yeah right.

I’m happy now. I think I did the right thing.

Still, I don’t want this awkwardness between us - not that I want your friendship.

Maybe this is the price I pay.. a costly decent price I’m willing to pay.